So here it is, one of those grainy grey photos that is pretty unintelligible and possibly rather irritating to everyone else, but which means the world those posting it proudly on facebook/twitter/blogger etc etc
Yep, I'm pregnant again, introducing Smidge2:
We found out while we were on holiday at Coombe Mill . Just like the last time it was only our second month of trying (we are incredibly lucky), and just like last time I was convinced I wasn't pregnant. I did the test just to be sure, as we'd been warned that pregnant women shouldn't handle the lambs and ewes (oh and there were some very cute orphaned lambs that really needed me to cuddle them). I emerged from the bathroom, shaking slightly, holding out the oh so romantic plastic stick and mumbling something along the lines of: "Oh my god Fred, it's coming up positive" (actually it may have been less polite than that). Just like last time, Fred was delighted, while I was somewhat wide-eyed and in much need of a good sit down and a cup of (now decaf) tea.
Writing this now, it already seems like a long time ago - BLOOMIN HECK the first trimester drags!
Since than I have mostly been hiding my head in the sand and the rest of me in a series of increasingly frumpy clothes. I didn't want to think beyond that all important 12 week scan, partly out of worry that something could go wrong, and partly because my memories of the latter stages of pregnancy, and especially of giving birth are not exactly fond ones. But now that I've seen the little creature waving, wriggling and generally being uncooperative on the hospital screen I'm starting to let myself get excited and look forward to meeting Smidge2. Boy or girl? Will he/she be completely different to E? How will they get on with a 3+ yr age gap? What will it be like caring for a new born second time around? What will E think of being a big sister? I'm increasingly intrigued to find out - although I'm still rather hoping that someone will invent birth by teleportation before November!
PS I have a whole lot more to update the blog on, it's been rather frustrating keeping quiet on this for the last few months, but I'll stop here for now and try to add posts in the next few days and weeks. In the mean time - anyone have any tips for pregnancy second time around??
PPS - this is very clearly my reason to the cheerful this week!!